Finding Myself

I’ve been toying with writing this post for a while now, my only issue is trying to get all the jumbled thoughts out of my head and into some sort of organised and understandable writing. Apologies if at times it seems confusing but hopefully you’ll stick with me, it comes from the heart and hopefully it may resonate with some of you.

Let me start off by putting it out there and saying that your 20’s are bloody hard. I’m the ripe old age of 26 now and boy has it been a rough ride. No one tells you the roller coaster ride you’ll go through in your 20’s to discover and find yourself, at times it’s been a ride I would have pressed the stop button on.

There is so much pressure put on young adults, and yes I would count your 20’s as young adults as we’re all still getting to grips with the whole adulting thing. Pressure to be successful, make something of yourself, find a partner, buy a house, get married, have a family, see the world and oh yeah actually try to enjoy life. With all these pressures it’s no wonder many 20 somethings find themselves at a loss and go through some sort of emotional turmoil.

For me it’s been my mid twenties that’s been particularly difficult. Whether its due to hormones, life pressures, who knows what mentally and emotionally I’ve been a mess. This led to me seeking medical advice, as mentally something felt a little off. I’d say the last four months have for sure been the toughest with what felt like more lows than highs.

Realistically, deep down, I think I knew things had been off for some time (possibly even a few years) but this year things spiralled. All in all this has led to a lack of motivation and interest to pretty much do anything, including blogging. Don’t get me wrong there have been posts I’ve wanted to write, but it was always a half-hearted attempt that didn’t amount to much.

It’s been a difficult and emotional time, that left me questioning everything. Finally I feel like I’m starting to come out the other side. I feel happier in myself and am starting to learn how to effectively deal with things. Slowly but surely the urge to write is creeping back. Whether it’s because I feel like I’m starting to get back on track with life generally or that I’ve been quite successful losing weight, something that has bothered me for quite some time.

I wanted to write this post to let you know where my heads been at but to also let you know that if at times you feel lost and question things, it’s ok. Something I’ve come to realise is that you are not alone, there are so many people out there going through similar things with their own problems they’re trying to deal with. Ultimately the best thing you can do is to talk, to those nearest and dearest, they will guide and support you through these tough times. At some point something will click and you will come out the other side and boy does it make you a stronger person that will be able to deal with any of the shit life throws at you.

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